lenamade

so yesterday was my d-day. seems kinda harsh-sounding even though it really wasn't. i got laid off yesterday, from a big software company. i was one of about 3500, so they didn't make me feel so special (i kid). i wasn't surprised at all, and was so prepared that i had my laptop cleaned out before i walked into the office yesterday. they were kind enough to give me system access until friday so i can get the necessary things pushed off to other channels.

hubby still works for the company and we're all still happy and healthy. a minor hiccup in the road of life. some would call me crazy, but knowing that i'm paid until mid-august sure helps take the edge off.

i have a clean slate now, my dreams are waiting to be made into reality. i could go to school, work for another company, work for same company or focus on my love of photography. i'll need a few days to decide, but for now i'm going to enjoy some stress-free living.

i was given a lemon, but i'm gonna make me some lenamade!


ps: i know it says "lenamade" instead of "lemonade". when my baby girl was younger, she couldn't say it properly. in fact, she wanted to make a lemonade stand so she could raise money for me to buy my beloved imac - which of course, i named "lenamade"

if nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies

to give credit where credit is due, the author of that quote is unknown.

so, if you haven't already noticed, i changed my blog layout again. i consider it the equivalent of changing your room layout, which i used to do with great frequency in my youth. but change is good, no?

after reading the updates on other friends' blogs, i decided that i would forgo the pattern i was originally taking - which is, that i would only write when there was something truly meaningful to say. i've come to realize that sometimes there are those who appreciate a moment of silliness or stupidity throughout the course of their day. i am one of those people. so even if it means that i have to scour the web for such moments to add to my own blog, i will have at least granted myself that tiny laugh. lord knows i need it some days.

in search of change

i had an epiphany earlier this week - i need a change in my life. i need to simplify things, or at least properly juggle all the things on my plate. the last year has been a struggle, what with past health issues running the show. but it's time for me to lay down the tracks of my life with me steering my own course.

i laid out a plan for myself last february, but told only a few people, so there was little accountability on my part and of course, resulted in little action. perhaps now, with a clear vision and having put it out in the universe (or at least the web), i'm more likely to stay on track.

so, i'm actively looking for a job change and going back to school. i know it sounds like it's not simplifying, but really it is...

...you'll just have to trust me on this one.